Pain or Nothing

Between feel pain or feel nothing.. what would you choose?

Epiphany

I had a epiphany today about my feelings.. I realised what I realy feel about everything, I know my place in the world now after some months of doubts in my head..

It may not be easy.. but I like what I am feeling..

Angels

Sparkling angel I believe

You were my savior in my time of need.

Blinded by faith I couldn't hear

All the whispers, the warnings so clear.

I see the angels,

I'll lead them to your door.

There's no escape now,

No mercy no more.

No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart.

You took my heart,

Deceived me right from the start.

You showed me dreams,

I wished they'd turn into real.

You broke a promise and made me realize.

It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see

Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.

Fallen angel, tell me why?

What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?

I see the angels,

I'll lead them to your door

There's no escape now

No mercy no more

No remorse cause I still remember

The smile when you tore me apart

You took my heart,

Deceived me right from the start.

You showed me dreams,

I wished they'd turn into real.

You broke a promise and made me realize.

It was all just a lie.

Could have been forever.

Now we have reached the end.

This world may have failed you,

It doesn't give the reason why.

You could have chosen a different path in life.

The smile when you tore me apart.

You took my heart,

Deceived me right from the start.

You showed me dreams,

I wished they'd turn into real.

You broke a promise and made me realize.

It was all just a lie.

Could have been forever.

Now we have reached the end.

[from Within Temptation - Angels]

[from Marta]

Dig up the past

Today I dug up the past.. and I must confess, I didn't like what I saw.

I hope that I can learn something from my mistakes and be a better person to myself and the others around.

Sometimes

Sometimes we need some time alone. We need time for ourselves. Find out who we are, rest, relax...

We all need it sometimes. And I need it right now.

Save my Soul

Got some bad news this morning
Which en turn made my day
When this someone spoke I listened
All of a sudden has less and less to say
Oooo how could this be
All this time I’ve lived vicariously
Who’s gonna save my soul now
Who’s gonna save my soul now
How will my story ever be told now
How will my story be told now

Made me feel like somebody …huh
Like somebody else
Although he was imitated often
It felt like I was being myself
Is it a shame that someone else’s song
Was totally and completely depended on

Who’s gonna save my soul now
Who’s gonna save my soul now
I wonder if I’ll live grow old now
Getting high cause I feel so low down
And maybe it’s a little selfish
All I have is the memory
Yet I never stopped to wonder
Was it possible you hurtin’ worse than me
Still my hunger turns to greed
Cause what about what I need
And Ooooo

Who’s gonna save my soul now
Whooooo’s gon save my soul now
Oooo I know I’m out of control now hoohooo
Tired enough to lay my own soul down

[from Gnarkls Barkley - Who's gonna save my soul]

Balance

I am happy, but I don't know the reason..

Am I selfish and I am just happy of your demise?

Am I righteous and I am just happy for doing the right thing?

I am happy, I don't know the reason and I don't know if I really care.. as long as I am happy..